life's lessons

today I ended a chapter in my life. the first one. it took me 23 years, a quarter of my life to write the first pages of my life's story.looking back on the years that passed they seem to fade away in the face of the events which have been shaping the last few months of my life. it is during this last moments of this chapter that I have learned the most precious lessons of them all. here are the things which I take with me:

1. honesty and integrity are like medicine - they may taste bad but will heal your soul. all my life I have been afraid of being judged and of failing so I often would bend the truth in order for "things to turn out just right", thus burdening my heart with a strange sense of guilt. lately I found out that accepting responsabillity for you actions may be painful but liberating.

2. actions speak up louder than words - so true. it doesn't matter what you think or say when you draw the line it is what you leave behind that really matters. I've been spending my life building hopes for other and making promises I never intended of keeping in the first place, and have dissapointed many people. now I choose to follow on my promises, and let my actions be my words.

3. consequences are those things that happen after you make a choice - and I oftenly tended to forget about them and chose to act on my first instinct and deal with them as they come. following a "carpe diem" lifestyle I managed to hurt three of the dearest people to me. starting from today I chose to follow my heart only after I know where I want it to lead me.

4. know what you want and act accordingly - it is harder to fail at something when you don't know what that something is and is easier to succeed at something if you don't know what you are fighting for. I have been living my life with the fear of failure and of being judged for it. I know realize it is ok to fail. failure teaches you to strive for more and to push forward. probably the most important lessons that life can bring you are the failures that you are submited to. now I know what I want for myself and from the next year, and am not afraid to scream it out loud:

- I want to be the best president, that I can be, for AIESEC Cluj - Napoca
- I want to rebuild my relationship with Malina, what ever it takes

Looking back again I am glad that life's turnings have brought me at this point, that my experiences have shaped me into the person that I am today and make me want to be a better person tomorrow. I start the next chapter of my life with confidence and clear desires, with a better understanding of life, with passion in my heart and energy in my soul.

I am ready, and looking forward for what tomorrow can teach me...