Cleaning up...

Right now the fate of AIESEC Cluj is beeing decided. The commission is counting the votes which will decide the next LCP and the determine the key factor in the transformation of the LC in the coming year. As minutes pass and votes are counted I am the only left in the empty plenary to finish up cleaning. Some one told me this days that cleaning out is like making order in your soul.Strangely I feel it...
I feel at peace with what happened because only what was meant to be will be.
Strangely I feel liberated and empowered to enjoy this moment as it is a celebration.
Every change is an opportunity for growth so after tomorrow a new chapter starts in the book of an already success story: FOAIE VERDE CLUJ.
Can't wait to open a bottle of champagne and celebrate:)

ups and downs

It is amaizing how our lives influenced by the things or people that gravitate around us. There are those elements that simply lift u up and make you smile and those who can bring you down and break you.
What do you do when some can bring u down or lift u up in the same time? How do you balance them in order to live a happy life.
As all things in life there are correct answers, only the right question for me, right now and exactly how I am feeling.
So what can bring balance and a smile for me today?

thanks for believing in me...

from a dear friend, far from cluj, but with her heart always close to me and AIESEC Cluj

just lines from a random skype conversation...

be selfish

love yourself

ask for help

dream

dar in visele astea include si pe ceilalti

ptr ca asta va fi driveul pozitiv in fiecare zi

:)

ultima interventie din partea mea

daca as fi fost LCP in AIESEC Cluj

vreo-data

si as fi avut o ambitie care se cheama 100

pana in Decembrie

as fi al naibii de lenes

nu as vrea sa le fac in the boring way, nu de alta, da nu as putea

ca statisticile asa spun si nu se insala

le-as face in a kinky way

si le-as face bine

poate as face 90

tot ar fi ok

dar nu as renunta la ambitia asta

dar asta as face eu :)

te las acum, te pup si daca ai nevoie de ajutorul meu

stii unde ma gasesti

Life long learning

I will start this post with 2 basic assumpions:
1. we only have one life to live
2. when we lose everything, and we are naked and alone the one thing that matters is who we are as a person, what we know and are able to do

A smart guy I met at a conference, I recently attended, said it doesn't matter what you have but how fast you can make it back.
Building on the two assumptions and the smart guys quote I wonder what is my real value and what do I do every day to add more. What do I do to sharpen my abilities, learn more and be less and less dependend of the things I own knowing that I can (re)generate them due to who I am and can do.

3rd assumption: living is a series of choices we make every day

Building on the 3 the logical assumptions, and the smart quote I can come up with 2 conclusions of my own:
1. I only have one life to live
2. I will invest more in sharpening my abilities and beeing the best me I can be

and a smart quote, from not so a smart guy. Life long learning is a process and a matter of concious choice. Chose the opportunities that help you grow, enjoy the process and add more value to yourself, every day.

Just ask yourself: What have I learned today?

beeing LCP

I tell to everybody that it is the most challenging and best position that you can have in AIESEC. Since before becoming LCP I have often wondered if I would be a good LCP? Now I stand and ask myself how does a good LCP look like? Is a good LCP the one who reaches all his goals, is he the one who builds the best team, is he the one that creates the most change agents.
I have often found out that a good LCP is the person who can take the most punches and rise up, wipe "the blood" and the tears saying "Ok. I think we should...". Right now standing down and looking up I see people around me asking me to help them, while some kicking me back down and others just looking in other directions. Somewhere in the distance I see our objectives and image of 7 people on the beach in May.
My choice is to rise up, build one team and reach our goals for at the end I will not ask myself if was a good LCP, rather ask myself have I done everything possible to be my best as LCP? and then I will ask the people around if I was a good LCP.
For those reading the blog and thinking one day to be LCP just ask yourself: What will the people say about you when you finish your term.

for someone special

sometimes life caries you far away from that which you want to be. from that someone you are suppose to be in life. well that is not entirely true because it is our choices that determine where we are and where we are heading.it is easy to hide behind I couldn't do anything about it or it was not up time. even if, you fail, the first time you get up and do it the second time.

well this post is about character. I believe that is one of the key ingredients to build a happy and successful life, it is your compass when your are lost, the mantle during storms and the moon in darkness. it is what makes you stay true to yourself when times are though, and odds are against you, when you pass trough doubt and ridicule. I admire people with character because I feel I lack my own, I don't feel strong enough or I just lack it.

some say you are born like that, my heart says I can be like that, even if 23 years have proven me wrong I am not going to live to next with out. it may be painful but it will pass. it may be unpleasent at times but it will bring me happiness on the long run.

this is to those special people in my life with strong character and a strong will. to those I admire and one day wish to be at least half the people they are. to Mali and Dutzu for what you teach me about who I want to be....

seeding flowers

maybe it was fate for me to begin this new chapter in my life with such a moment where all hope and dream seems to be engulfed by anger and disappointment.

assuming that life is a bare garden and we are the gardener it is up to us what we do with it. we can leave it bare and when the years have past and we as well turn into dust there will be nothing left behind; or we can choose to work the soil, to seed, to care and to love thus when we are gone our flowers will forever speak about us and remember our name.

I stand before my garden where the flowers which I have seeded, cared and loved are buried underneath a landfall of suffering and disappointment. looking at the garden I can choose to dig trough layers of inner pain and disappointment in search of those flowers or I can start working the soil again, planting the seeds, caring and loving, growing new flowers to speak of happiness and hope.

I believe we are all the sum of the choices we make. surprisingly my choices were the ones which have buried my flowers in the first place. I choose to leave them buried, embrace this moment of darkness and disappointment in my life and choose to once more work the soil, seed, care and love till the color of flowers will once again bring light into my garden.